It occurred to me recently that I have not written anything of substance since February. Literally, almost nothing at all. I’ve answered emails and posted the occasional tweet or Facebook status, but that’s about it.
It hasn’t been writer’s block, per se, that’s kept me away from the blog. I don’t believe in writer’s block. However, I do believe in this crippling anxiety that presents itself every time I login to the dashboard of my blog and begin a new post. I don’t know the cause, but I do recognize the symptoms and effects.
On this day of Thanksgiving, I’ve resolved to remember how grateful I am for this blog, this community, these games, designers, and publishers, and to move forward here despite my anxiety. Life is too short, the rewards apparent when I am actively writing are too great to forgo due to a little crippling anxiety.
So here I am now.
At the time I last posted, I didn’t expect the introduction of The Reggie Project to plug the flow of content here. The plan was to post game stories and summaries of that project as it evolved, thus providing months of content on the blog. So, what happened? Where have I been?
It was around the time of that last post that my wife and children and I working in earnest toward our family’s dream of owning our own retail fabric store. In July of this year, the dream was made real as we opened the doors to Dylan Fabrics at 408 Pacific Ave, Bremerton, WA.
In the time since, I’ve spent about 60-80 hours a week between my day job (Rural Carrier Associate for the USPS) and working for Dylan Fabrics. Time to dedicate to tabletop-sports gaming has been minimal, at best. I do try to get in at least two or three games a week, always late at night before bed, and taking that time to check out of everything and play a game has been a higher priority than updating the blog.
But I like writing! Or, more truthfully, I like having written. Today, with gratitude and optimism, I resolve to make writing a greater priority – above all but family, work, and self-care.
So, here I am. I’ve missed you. From the bottom of my anxious heart, thank you for remembering OneForFive.com and thank you for still coming around.
Here’s a little video we made to promote our fabric store. The little girls are my children, the boy is the son of one of our employees. The woman you see first is my lovely, talented, and brilliant wife, Melissa Dylan.