Going Dark

Don’t you hate it when one of your favorite blogs just suddenly goes dark? There are no new posts for a few days and you think, “that’s weird. Maybe the blogger is on vacation or something.” And then the space between posts gets longer and you start to get apprehensive, start to fear the worst.

September 2012 has been a dark month at oneforfive.com, and it’s been a dark month for me personally. I’ve promised full disclosure on this website before, and you’ll have it, but not yet, not tonight.

I’m still sober – so it’s not that if that’s what you’re worried about. I haven’t touched alcohol or drugs in 23 months now.

In fact, in this dark time I’ve turned to the program and given myself to it and to God with greater abandon than ever before. I don’t trust my own decisions right now, don’t trust my emotions, so I’m giving myself up to those I do trust and taking their advice, even when (especially when) it contradicts what I think I want to do.

So, I’ll be back shortly. I’ll have regular posts up again, I have game reviews and life stories to tell. One day at a time.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

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  1. Take care of yourself Paul. Be strong whatever is happening. We will still be here when you return.

    • Everything will be alright. You hang tough and continue to do so until you see the light because you will see it. You are in my prayers. Hope to have you back soon.

  2. Paul,

    Hang in there man. I’m praying for you.

  3. Wish you well, hope your back standing in the light soon.

  4. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! No one should nave to endure any DARK period alone. Take care and may God Bless.


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