I’m feeling grateful today, and blessed, and loved, but alone.
For many – if not most – of us this is a solitary hobby that we pursue. It’s a testament to our human need for connection that blogs like this one and forums like those on Delphi and in other places are such wonderful gathering places to air our triumphs and tragedies, to reach out and to be welcomed and missed.
In the spirit of gratitude, here is a list of things I am grateful for today:
healthy and happy children
an extended family all over the world that loves me and my children
friends whom I love and who love me like family
the ability to communicate with friends and family instantaeously
sobriety, second chances
youth, health, opportunity
a job, a roof, a car, a full belly, clean water, new-ish clothes
access to 21st century technology and all the information I’ll ever need
Let’s go to the way-back machine and revisit something I posted on November 14, 2011.
I’ve been trying to live by the motto that all I have to do at any given moment is whatever is “the next indicated right thing.” I do believe that there is an ordinance placed within me that, like a compass, steers me right. When I succumb to my own will – which is by definition an act of selfishness – I often find myself wandering away from that right direction. And I feel it, literally, physically feel it when that happens. It makes me ill, anxious, wired, unhappy and thirsty. For a drink.
I’m meditating on the following passage today, and praying only that through me God’s will may be done. I pray that my confidence in Him grows to such that I shouldn’t feel a need to beg for confidence in myself.
1 Peter – Chapter 5:
5All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.”
6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.